Heyyyy! You came back! Thank you! This first week is a little rough. I’m getting in the swing of writing every day – well, writing something that someone else will read, that is.
Well, I want to talk to you today about decisions. A wise person once said, “Do not make a permanent decision based on temporary feelings.” So, take a deep breath, I’m about to be very transparent for a moment.
During my worst times of my mental struggles, I made a series of horrible mistakes. The worst one was in regards to my children. I was horrible to be around as a friend, so just imagine what it’s like for a child?
I knew this was not the life I wanted for them so I gave them up. The most painful thing is knowing I contributed to pain and feelings of rejection in their lives.
I’m back in their lives now, but life is what it is and it’s a process as we get to know each other. I’m so very proud of each of them. I am proud of who they are, and who they will be. I am proud of their resilience.
My thought for today:
Regret is a terrible emotion. While telling this story was hard, I pray it will help you. I’m pleading with you, please don’t make major decisions based on emotions.
The good news is, God our my help. He’s a God of reconciliation. He is a God of love. He will cause good to come out of bad. Now we can make another decision. I decide to choose joy. I decide to choose peace. I decide to press past my past and toward my future! Have you decided? Let’s go then!
Psalms 42:11 is where I take strength from today:
But, O my soul, don’t be discouraged. Don’t be upset. Expect God to act! For I know that I shall again have plenty of reason to praise him for all that he will do. He is my help! He is my God! (TLB)
So I say to my soul, “Don’t be discouraged. Don’t be disturbed. For I know my God will break through for me.” Then I’ll have plenty of reasons to praise him all over again. Yes, living before his face is my saving grace! (TPT)